Marriage

Another post about my marriage.

Some of you might know that lately my marriage hasn't been great. Some people say no child wants unhappy parents and some say fix it... ages, ages ago in our grandparents time, divorce was the worst kind of thing. Yeah sure it is needed sometimes but I would say as a really last option when they both know they don't love each other... and child? Always try to fix it for your child's sake.. no child wants unhappy parents but no child wants their parents to not be together... I've been raised by a single mum, then she got married... there was lots of violence to my mum, me and sometines my lil sister... so yeah if you think about this kind of marriage then there is nothing to fix but when it's like it was with me and Andy whe  we just argue... argur over stupid little things.. should it serio usly throw it all away cuz of that? Our marriage, family, home... we all did it ourselves... no married couple is perfect! We will always have arguments but we have to sort it out by talking rather than finishing it. When I was getting married I said for better or worse and now im sticking to it... its not always good but thats why you promised you will be with that person no matter what. My family means the world to me... yes I do have doubt sometimes 'do I really want to be with him'... cuz it is true... you never know what you have until its gone but I dont wanna find out... I know I cant get better so im stickin with it. I love Andy more than anything in this world. I would do anything for him. My family quickly accepted me having a baby cuz they just loved Andy... they know he's a great guy. He's an amazing husband and father. He is like my best friend and I do trust him however im still really jealous and I like to check his phone.... dont judge! ;) he's really jealous as well so we kind of say 'can you not talk to that person'... I hate when he used to talk to his ex... I asked him to stop and he did but then he spoke to her again when we argued and now its kind of freaking me out specially when a girl is prettier than me! ^^ . We both need to work a bit on actually understanding each others needs and feelings. Yes, I do hate his mum and it will never change. She put me in so much stress when I was pregnant. She kept telling andy what to do and when he sold his car so we could afford things for Niko, she had a go at him for spending a £1000 on a baby... she kept telling us to buy everything for Niko and our home from charity shops where she was the one with money and always had to have amazing stuff. She was always really selfish with money thats why andys dad usually gave us some money so she didnt know cuz she would of want it back. When Niko was born, andys dad treated him like his grandson straight away but his mum... treated him just like any other baby... I gave her last chance to spoil niko on christmas... she failed so badly its so not worth telling! She keeps saying she can babysit niko whenever but I dont trust her, she is old and forgetting everything... I am not risking my son only cuz she wants to babysit him :/ oh and she always changed her mind... when she promised 'oh yeah we will do that for you' the next day it would be 'im not gonna help, you can do it yourself'.... I really do hate that bitch but oh well... no one is perfect... I still want to be with Andy no matter what! I hope one day Niko will be as good, caring and loving as his daddy :) right now he just woke up and screams so badly that im gonna finish here :)

Thanks for reading
Xxx

P.S If you love someone, fight for that love!