Everyone has them! What are my dreams and fears? Oh there is quite a lot and there is some of them that I can remember :)
Dreams:
` Learn to ride a horse
` Have a family holiday every year
` Buy our own house within few years from now
` Have a little girl next
` Niko to have both parents together
` Have a dog
` Be able to spoil Niko whenever
` Have twins next with at least one girl ;)
` Niko to not have the same colour of eyes as mine :/
` Niko to be able to speak Polish as well as English
` Niko's first word to be mama :)
` My marriage to last forever <3
` Be pregnant max.3 times :) (not saying 3 kids cuz I want twins next and then another but no more than 3 pregnancies lol)
` To move out from this small ugly town haha :D
` Spend at least one christmas with Niko in Poland :D
` Be stay at home for at least few years :) I love spending time with my baby!
Fears:
` Cot death!!! D:
` Outliving Niko
` Having two boys lol :)
` Getting divorced
` Struggle with money
` My grandad dying
` Being a single mum
` Niko hating me
` Getting fat
` Never be able to buy a house
` Spiders!!!!
` Heights
` Andy stops loving me
` Something happening to me and Niko not having a mum around :(
I can't think of anything more, sorry! Now I'm off to bath Niko as he's already getting tired poor baba.. had only one nap today! Wish me luck :D
Thanks for reading.
xxx
Friday, 28 February 2014
Being a mum
I am not gonna tittle it as being a teen mum because there is no difference! Every parent does the same things no matter what age they are. Some parents are 17, some are 30 and some other are even coming up 50! Anything happens but to be honest I think being a younger mum is better than being over 40 and having a child. Younger mums have more energy, can deal better and older also put babies at risk of having a down sydrome etc.. well so why teen mums get so judged but not the older mums? Oh doesn't matter.. I don't care what people think :)
I got pregnant at age of 17 and gave birth when I was 18. Yes, it will young and yes my baby was planned. Sooo? I am just as good parents as any other mums. Of course not talking about the drug or alcohol addicts! That's a different story all together :) . Omg I can't even focus on this post as I've just put Niko for a nap and he's crying cuz he doesn't want to sleep.. Oh joy :) . I am a not single mum, Niko has a father and to be honest I can't imagine dealing with parenting on my own.. I have so much respect for all the single mums! Andy helps me with almost everything when he's home. He does the nights feeds, we bath Niko in turns, feed him in turns on weekends, change him also in turns... It's all in turns :) On the week days, I do everything on my own so I have to clean, cook, change him, feed him... sometimes even bath him cuz usually yes we bath him in turns but we help each other so if Andy baths him, I get towel and pj ready etc.. but sometimes I have to do it on my own if Andy has late shift at work. It's not easy at times. E.g. like now, Niko is just crying cuz he doesn't want to sleep or when he is just grumpy... he usually is a happy baby but has his days just like everyone I guess. But I try to not let him win whenever he cries or whatever... I am the parents and he will be listening to me and that's how I see it. Sometimes when he really is hard to handle, he just makes me cry and then we both cry together. I sometimes can't cope at all but then I remember.. he is a baby and thats the way he's gonna be now. I try to put some discipline now into his life like e.g. if he tries to grab something and I'm not allowing him I will just say NO, and move it away from him. Also I never let him eat and watch tv at the same time. He has his time set for watching tv every day which is before breakfast and after dinner. My husband is really bad at that... if Niko cries for more than 5 mins, he is just kicking off and goes and gets him. Niko knows he will always win with his dad hahaha :)
Sometimes I feel just I am about to loose my patience when Niko just doesn't stop crying.. It doesn't help that babies can't speak otherwise it would be too easy haha. You just have to guess what they want. Niko cries really rarely except the night time for a feed but in a day... well I can't think of any reasons that he usually cries about... other than e.g. now cuz he doesn't want to sleep haha. Going out isn't easy either e.g. if you wanna go shopping or to town... everything has to be sorted around your baby e.g. what time does he eat, what time should he nap etc... Also trying to get your baby into a routine. Niko as a newborn, used to go to bed at 10pm, sleep till 3am then properly wake up at about 8/9am but then I thought 10pm is sooo late.. I don't want to spend my evenings with Niko. Evening should be my and Andy's time to relax after a long day etc so then I started putting him to sleep at 7pm and he now sleep 7pm-4/5am then wakes up 8am for a day. I don't mind him getting up early, I much prefer having an evening for myself! Niko also has baths every other day and it was like that from the beginning and he knew its his bed time cuz I always changed him into a pj... he never wears sleep suits in a daytime... I just never allowed it. I just wanted him to know the difference between day and night!
Now he is coming up 7 months old and can sit on his own :) I dont think he's gonna crawl any time soon as he hates being on his tummy. Since he's been on jars, my mum told me to add some salt to it as it gives them better taste and they will swap for a normal food easier. Don't know if its true but I do add some salt and he seems fine and loves his food. I hate when people judge your way of raising your child up. Everyone agrees that every baby is different but no one agrees with different way of raising them up. How does that work?! You have a full control over your baby and it's up to you what you gonna do. Like I sometimes wake Niko up from his naps otherwise he wouldn't eat and wouldn't go to sleep at 7pm... and my mum tells me that I should never wake a sleeping baby because he will be angry later in the future. I dont care.. I even read on the internet that sometimes its good to wake them up otherwise they wouldn't sleep in a night. Everyone has their own views about parenting and I am not a narrow-minded person e.g. I don't agree with my mum's way of raising my lil brother up cuz to me its just so wrong but again, I will never say anything about it cuz he is her child and she does what she thinks is right. That's what I do with Niko as well. I do what I think is right for him :) He certainly doesnt look like an unhappy baby!
I got pregnant at age of 17 and gave birth when I was 18. Yes, it will young and yes my baby was planned. Sooo? I am just as good parents as any other mums. Of course not talking about the drug or alcohol addicts! That's a different story all together :) . Omg I can't even focus on this post as I've just put Niko for a nap and he's crying cuz he doesn't want to sleep.. Oh joy :) . I am a not single mum, Niko has a father and to be honest I can't imagine dealing with parenting on my own.. I have so much respect for all the single mums! Andy helps me with almost everything when he's home. He does the nights feeds, we bath Niko in turns, feed him in turns on weekends, change him also in turns... It's all in turns :) On the week days, I do everything on my own so I have to clean, cook, change him, feed him... sometimes even bath him cuz usually yes we bath him in turns but we help each other so if Andy baths him, I get towel and pj ready etc.. but sometimes I have to do it on my own if Andy has late shift at work. It's not easy at times. E.g. like now, Niko is just crying cuz he doesn't want to sleep or when he is just grumpy... he usually is a happy baby but has his days just like everyone I guess. But I try to not let him win whenever he cries or whatever... I am the parents and he will be listening to me and that's how I see it. Sometimes when he really is hard to handle, he just makes me cry and then we both cry together. I sometimes can't cope at all but then I remember.. he is a baby and thats the way he's gonna be now. I try to put some discipline now into his life like e.g. if he tries to grab something and I'm not allowing him I will just say NO, and move it away from him. Also I never let him eat and watch tv at the same time. He has his time set for watching tv every day which is before breakfast and after dinner. My husband is really bad at that... if Niko cries for more than 5 mins, he is just kicking off and goes and gets him. Niko knows he will always win with his dad hahaha :)
Sometimes I feel just I am about to loose my patience when Niko just doesn't stop crying.. It doesn't help that babies can't speak otherwise it would be too easy haha. You just have to guess what they want. Niko cries really rarely except the night time for a feed but in a day... well I can't think of any reasons that he usually cries about... other than e.g. now cuz he doesn't want to sleep haha. Going out isn't easy either e.g. if you wanna go shopping or to town... everything has to be sorted around your baby e.g. what time does he eat, what time should he nap etc... Also trying to get your baby into a routine. Niko as a newborn, used to go to bed at 10pm, sleep till 3am then properly wake up at about 8/9am but then I thought 10pm is sooo late.. I don't want to spend my evenings with Niko. Evening should be my and Andy's time to relax after a long day etc so then I started putting him to sleep at 7pm and he now sleep 7pm-4/5am then wakes up 8am for a day. I don't mind him getting up early, I much prefer having an evening for myself! Niko also has baths every other day and it was like that from the beginning and he knew its his bed time cuz I always changed him into a pj... he never wears sleep suits in a daytime... I just never allowed it. I just wanted him to know the difference between day and night!
Now he is coming up 7 months old and can sit on his own :) I dont think he's gonna crawl any time soon as he hates being on his tummy. Since he's been on jars, my mum told me to add some salt to it as it gives them better taste and they will swap for a normal food easier. Don't know if its true but I do add some salt and he seems fine and loves his food. I hate when people judge your way of raising your child up. Everyone agrees that every baby is different but no one agrees with different way of raising them up. How does that work?! You have a full control over your baby and it's up to you what you gonna do. Like I sometimes wake Niko up from his naps otherwise he wouldn't eat and wouldn't go to sleep at 7pm... and my mum tells me that I should never wake a sleeping baby because he will be angry later in the future. I dont care.. I even read on the internet that sometimes its good to wake them up otherwise they wouldn't sleep in a night. Everyone has their own views about parenting and I am not a narrow-minded person e.g. I don't agree with my mum's way of raising my lil brother up cuz to me its just so wrong but again, I will never say anything about it cuz he is her child and she does what she thinks is right. That's what I do with Niko as well. I do what I think is right for him :) He certainly doesnt look like an unhappy baby!
Thanks for reading :)
xxx
Thursday, 27 February 2014
True love?
Tonight I really wanna talk about the true love! You can comment below with your opinions if you want :)
As you know, I am married. My husband is 4 years older than me, he is English but with a bit of Italian as well. He was adopted when he was a newborn but he has a good family. I met him in college, just outside when I wanted to have a fag with my friend, and he was the person I borrowed a lighter from :) haha not really romantic, I know :D but it wasn't the love from the first sight.. oh no... I couldn't even remember what he looked like.. then after some time, I got a message off him saying "You fit" . Haha i thought he was one of these that you just ignore! We've been talking on facebook a lot before we actually met up and when we did.. I was so worried that it would be so awkward as it usually is with just met people but it wasn't... it was like we've known each other for years!
When we got together, I really didn't expect to be with him any longer than a month but .. well.. here I am married to him! :D haha. I always remember my mum saying that if you really wanna see if the guy cares, wait with sex for at least 3 months... I was never good at that so I thought I'd give it a go this time and I did... He really didn't seem to be bothered by it at all which made me happy.. I knew he loved me and I loved him. We spent every minute of our free time together just watching films, talking etc. It just felt so right being with him. Then I thought I want him to be the dad of my baby :) and he is now!! :D ;) .
We got married when I was pregnant, and it was in a county hall so it wasn't a church wedding. I just got a maxi dress that I could wear on my bump :) My grandparents came from Poland for this and we just had a bbq after at my parents' in law :) the weather was lovely and I couldn't ask for better. We were planning on having a church wedding etc in few years after in Poland but now it just feels weird thinking about marrying your husband, so we decided not to... Do i regret it? Yes, of course! Which girl wouldn't want that special day where she gets to wear the most beautiful dress and have it as she always wanted! It hurts knowing I will never get to wear a wedding dress.. I never even had a honey moon.. but if I had to chose either have all that in a proper way so wedding dress, lots of planning, lots of families or just marrying the guy I'm married to now, I would always choose Andy. I hope maybe one day, we will get to have our honeymoon one day... MAYBE :)
Our marriage isn't perfect.. but to be honest, if it was... it would be boring! We argue... not a lot but when we do, it's really bad... it's constant "Do you wanna leave me?" "Does that mean it's over?" etc... but it never is... and I never leave... at the end of the day, it is proven that the first 3 years of marriage are the hardest and we went through worse to be honest :) We are so similar to each other but again so different. We are from two so different worlds.. He is from one of these families that were never hard up with money.. he had everything and I was one of these that I was happy if I had warm, proper dinner on a table after school :) We sometimes don't understand each other because of that cuz as now I have money because he works, I want to give our son everything ! Simply because I've never had it and I want to spoil Niko as much as possible. Just like I want Niko to have a full family because I've never had a father other than in my early childhood my ex step dad who was only violent to me. I want Niko to have family holidays, family time.. just enjoy himself while being so young when I couldn't. I had to grow up really fast as at age of 7/8 I was just felt on my own in my neighbourhood because my step dad took my sister to town for some meal and to go to the cinema. I had to cope on my own. At least I had my grandma living really close to me so I could always go and eat something when I was hungry :) . But anyway... I want Niko to have the best life, he could possible have and for Andy, spoiling him just isn't right.. whenever we argue about this kind of stuff, we just try to explain our views and we get to the agreement.
That's what marriage is about... understanding, listening, talking, sorting things out... and that's what we do even if it takes us days with not talking to each other at all, we still get to the point to just sort it out at the end of the day. I love him more than words can describe! Just like I hate him as well :D . He does my head in almost every day and I just wanna slap him in his face! But thats still what marriage is about... even thou we are annoyed with each other, we still love each other and we fix whats broken! He is my soul mate, best friend and husband, all in one! <3 . He helps me to survive, he supports me with every decision I make. We work together. We deal with everything together! It's not me and him anymore... It's us now and I will never let it change!
Thanks for reading :)
xxx
Tuesday, 25 February 2014
Niko Florian Baker
Time to introduce you to my son :) His full name is Niko Florian Baker. His first name is greek and there isn't a reason why we chose it other than just liked it. His middle name is after my grandad as it's also his middle name. My grandad always been like a father to me that I've never had and he always calls me 'his little daughter' :') . Well I got pregnant October 2012 and it was fully planned with Andy :) We were so excited ! My pregnancy was soo easy.. I didn't have any symptoms other than morning sickness that lasted 4 days :) I first felt Niko's kick at 18 weeks :D We actually did hope for a girl and when we found out it was a boy, I actually cried after and I was really upset.. But now I love my lil boy of course!!!
He was due 31st of July 2013. I got pregnant at age of 17 but gave birth at age of 18. I've never knew that kind of love that you feel for your child until I held him for the first time. I kept changing names that I wanted and everyone was just laughing at me... First he was meant to be Nathan, then Kaiden,,, aw there was lots of names but he ended up being Niko and it really suits him :) . He was born 8 days overdue on the 8th of August 2013.
My labour was easy in a way and not in another... 7th of August at 7pm I was babysitting my lil brother at my place and I got one of these tightenings that I was getting anyway and suddenly something felt like a pop in my lower bump and suddenly got a sharp pain! I knew that was it! I didn't have any labour signs before except I had a sweep 2 days before and midwife was so shocked as I was dilated 2cm, and she could feel the babys head really easily and she was shocked that im not in an actual labour.. lol oh by the way, the day I started contracting was my dad's in law birthday :D at 11pm, we headed to the hospital and Andy's dad gave us a lift and waited in a car just in case if we had to go back home. I was in the waiting room for ages! I think till almost 1am! When midwife checked me, I was 5cm and lost my water so she put me on a bed when I was meant to wait to be taken into the delivery unit but when Andy went to grab my bags from the car and when he came back (about 10mins) I got a contraction and I actually shouted cuz it really fucking hurt! :D the midwife ran to me and checked me again...well, i was 10cm and actually pushing! :o
They rushed me to the delivery unit and kept telling me not to push! I was meant to have a water birth and they actually had a pool available but it was too late for me :'( ! I didn't even get a chance to get changed, midwife had to quickly undress me and told me to push.. I was pushing for over 2 hours... the worst part was, that I had a back labour and no one knew why as Niko was in a normal position and my back felt like its going into halfs with every contraction... ouch! ;< . I really didn't have strenght to push his head out so the midwife had to cut me... oh fucking hell, never want that done to me again!! Andy at first was really good, passing me a cup of water, holding gas and air thing... but then he was fainting so midwife told him to sit down. When Niko's head was out, he started crying straight away and the midwife was laughing as it wasn't his time quite yet :) Then...there he was... at 4:36am little tiny human full in blood, crying.. midwife put him under my top straight away and then it kicked in... The love for my few seconds old child.. Andy still couldnt look.. he didn't even manage to cut the cord hahaha :D . Poor guy... he went through hell there ^^ I had stitches put on then just spent a full day in hospital because he was sleeping all day and we couldnt wake him up to breastfeed.
Now he is the most perfect, healthy little boy that loves everything and everyone! Can't believe how quickly he's growing but I try to enjoy every second of him being still kind of small. I can't even remember him being a newborn anymore :( . Everyone fell in love with him the minute they saw him. He is such an easy baby! He never wakes up more than twice a night, he doesn't need attention but of course he enjoys it :) he plays on his own and doesn't mind it! He loves his jumperoo thou :D he is a really lively baby and I kind of hope he will stay that way :D next week we hope to put him into his own room so we can get some privacy back :) Yes, I do say Andy is the love of my life.. because he is... but the love I have for him and Niko is different. They both mean the world to me and I can't imagine my life without them! Andy is such a great dad as well... he does the night feeds and plays with him whenever.. but i can tell you one thing ;) Niko is a mummy's boy! That's for sure! :D
Thanks for reading :)
xxx
He was due 31st of July 2013. I got pregnant at age of 17 but gave birth at age of 18. I've never knew that kind of love that you feel for your child until I held him for the first time. I kept changing names that I wanted and everyone was just laughing at me... First he was meant to be Nathan, then Kaiden,,, aw there was lots of names but he ended up being Niko and it really suits him :) . He was born 8 days overdue on the 8th of August 2013.
My labour was easy in a way and not in another... 7th of August at 7pm I was babysitting my lil brother at my place and I got one of these tightenings that I was getting anyway and suddenly something felt like a pop in my lower bump and suddenly got a sharp pain! I knew that was it! I didn't have any labour signs before except I had a sweep 2 days before and midwife was so shocked as I was dilated 2cm, and she could feel the babys head really easily and she was shocked that im not in an actual labour.. lol oh by the way, the day I started contracting was my dad's in law birthday :D at 11pm, we headed to the hospital and Andy's dad gave us a lift and waited in a car just in case if we had to go back home. I was in the waiting room for ages! I think till almost 1am! When midwife checked me, I was 5cm and lost my water so she put me on a bed when I was meant to wait to be taken into the delivery unit but when Andy went to grab my bags from the car and when he came back (about 10mins) I got a contraction and I actually shouted cuz it really fucking hurt! :D the midwife ran to me and checked me again...well, i was 10cm and actually pushing! :o
They rushed me to the delivery unit and kept telling me not to push! I was meant to have a water birth and they actually had a pool available but it was too late for me :'( ! I didn't even get a chance to get changed, midwife had to quickly undress me and told me to push.. I was pushing for over 2 hours... the worst part was, that I had a back labour and no one knew why as Niko was in a normal position and my back felt like its going into halfs with every contraction... ouch! ;< . I really didn't have strenght to push his head out so the midwife had to cut me... oh fucking hell, never want that done to me again!! Andy at first was really good, passing me a cup of water, holding gas and air thing... but then he was fainting so midwife told him to sit down. When Niko's head was out, he started crying straight away and the midwife was laughing as it wasn't his time quite yet :) Then...there he was... at 4:36am little tiny human full in blood, crying.. midwife put him under my top straight away and then it kicked in... The love for my few seconds old child.. Andy still couldnt look.. he didn't even manage to cut the cord hahaha :D . Poor guy... he went through hell there ^^ I had stitches put on then just spent a full day in hospital because he was sleeping all day and we couldnt wake him up to breastfeed.
Now he is the most perfect, healthy little boy that loves everything and everyone! Can't believe how quickly he's growing but I try to enjoy every second of him being still kind of small. I can't even remember him being a newborn anymore :( . Everyone fell in love with him the minute they saw him. He is such an easy baby! He never wakes up more than twice a night, he doesn't need attention but of course he enjoys it :) he plays on his own and doesn't mind it! He loves his jumperoo thou :D he is a really lively baby and I kind of hope he will stay that way :D next week we hope to put him into his own room so we can get some privacy back :) Yes, I do say Andy is the love of my life.. because he is... but the love I have for him and Niko is different. They both mean the world to me and I can't imagine my life without them! Andy is such a great dad as well... he does the night feeds and plays with him whenever.. but i can tell you one thing ;) Niko is a mummy's boy! That's for sure! :D
Thanks for reading :)
xxx
Introducing myself :)
I don't even know where to begin... My full name is Paulina Klaudia Baker. I'm 18 and I'm polish but moved to England in June 2009. I have one sister (13) and my brother (3). My mum got pregnant with me at age of 16 but it was her first time and I've never met my dad as I've been told he wasn't a good person anyway.
My mum moved to England in 2008 to earn some money as in Poland life was just too expensive. I then lived with my grandparents for that year. When my mum had my sister, she was married but the marriage was really difficult. I still remember the difficult nights when my mum sent me to my grandparents for a sleepover so she could sleep in my bed in the same room as my sister and she locked the room. My childhood was quite violent... But it doesn't matter :)
When my mum had my little brother, she said it should put me off having kids for a while but to be honest, it worked the opposite way haha :) I knew I really wanted a baby and that was my dream :) . But of course I don't think 15 is a good age for having a baby! I was in few relationships... first when I moved to England, I got with a chinese guy and my english pretty much sucked but its a long story... I considered him as my first love and there is nothing bad I could say about him but now we are just some strangers with memories.
In January 2012, I met Andy who was then 21 and I was 17 but then I was trying to get with other guy from my college. Andy was on the second year of business when I was on the first year. Then I got into a relationship with that guy but after we broke up, I started talking to Andy quite a lot. Every night we just talked on facebook for ages as his phone was broken. I found out so many things that he is adopted etc. The only thing I didn't like was that he said he isn't emotional in any way. He doesn't show any emotions and doesn't care about anythin.. When he asked me out, I really wasn't sure of what to do as I knew it wouldn't work out! But after a while of him waiting for the answer (about 3 weeks), I decided to give it a shot. After a month of being together, Andy told me he loves me but I wasn't there quite yet. We got together on the 11th of June 2012. Few weeks after I told him I love him too :) This relationship was so much different than expected.. he was the most caring and loving boyfriend I've ever had and it was so obvious that I was the most important person to him.
After few months of being together, I just thought he would be a perfect father so I talked him into trying for a baby :) I stopped taking my pills and in October, We found out that I'm pregnant. We lived in my mum's for almost my whole pregnancy. On Valentine's day 2013 Andy proposed to me :) Proposal was planned but I didn't know when :) We got married on the 1st of June 2013, exactly a week after my 18th birthday :D The day after the wedding Andy found out that he got a job in Worcester Bosch as technical support adviser and we were really happy :D Then we moved into our own place in July when I was due the end of July :D Niko was overdue thou, but story about him will be told later :) Now we are happily married, living together and having our soon to be 7 months old baby boy Niko :)
My mum and Andy's dad supported us with everything but Andy's mum always wanted the worst for us. She was getting angry when we were buying stuff for our baby and just wanted us to have a really cheap stuff for our home and our son! I still hate her and will never forgive her how much stress she caused when I was pregnant. Well I can't think of anything else to say about me... I went through a lot but it's pointless to talk about it as it was a long time ago... having a depression, trying to kill myself, having an agressive step dad but oh well... life goes on and I'm happy with it! I believe everything has its reason to be... If my childhood wasn't the way it was, I wouldn't move to England and I wouldn't be happy with my husband and son! My life is so perfect but also so unperfect but we will get there in later posts :)
Thanks for reading guys!
xxx
My mum moved to England in 2008 to earn some money as in Poland life was just too expensive. I then lived with my grandparents for that year. When my mum had my sister, she was married but the marriage was really difficult. I still remember the difficult nights when my mum sent me to my grandparents for a sleepover so she could sleep in my bed in the same room as my sister and she locked the room. My childhood was quite violent... But it doesn't matter :)
When my mum had my little brother, she said it should put me off having kids for a while but to be honest, it worked the opposite way haha :) I knew I really wanted a baby and that was my dream :) . But of course I don't think 15 is a good age for having a baby! I was in few relationships... first when I moved to England, I got with a chinese guy and my english pretty much sucked but its a long story... I considered him as my first love and there is nothing bad I could say about him but now we are just some strangers with memories.
In January 2012, I met Andy who was then 21 and I was 17 but then I was trying to get with other guy from my college. Andy was on the second year of business when I was on the first year. Then I got into a relationship with that guy but after we broke up, I started talking to Andy quite a lot. Every night we just talked on facebook for ages as his phone was broken. I found out so many things that he is adopted etc. The only thing I didn't like was that he said he isn't emotional in any way. He doesn't show any emotions and doesn't care about anythin.. When he asked me out, I really wasn't sure of what to do as I knew it wouldn't work out! But after a while of him waiting for the answer (about 3 weeks), I decided to give it a shot. After a month of being together, Andy told me he loves me but I wasn't there quite yet. We got together on the 11th of June 2012. Few weeks after I told him I love him too :) This relationship was so much different than expected.. he was the most caring and loving boyfriend I've ever had and it was so obvious that I was the most important person to him.
After few months of being together, I just thought he would be a perfect father so I talked him into trying for a baby :) I stopped taking my pills and in October, We found out that I'm pregnant. We lived in my mum's for almost my whole pregnancy. On Valentine's day 2013 Andy proposed to me :) Proposal was planned but I didn't know when :) We got married on the 1st of June 2013, exactly a week after my 18th birthday :D The day after the wedding Andy found out that he got a job in Worcester Bosch as technical support adviser and we were really happy :D Then we moved into our own place in July when I was due the end of July :D Niko was overdue thou, but story about him will be told later :) Now we are happily married, living together and having our soon to be 7 months old baby boy Niko :)
My mum and Andy's dad supported us with everything but Andy's mum always wanted the worst for us. She was getting angry when we were buying stuff for our baby and just wanted us to have a really cheap stuff for our home and our son! I still hate her and will never forgive her how much stress she caused when I was pregnant. Well I can't think of anything else to say about me... I went through a lot but it's pointless to talk about it as it was a long time ago... having a depression, trying to kill myself, having an agressive step dad but oh well... life goes on and I'm happy with it! I believe everything has its reason to be... If my childhood wasn't the way it was, I wouldn't move to England and I wouldn't be happy with my husband and son! My life is so perfect but also so unperfect but we will get there in later posts :)
Thanks for reading guys!
xxx
First post
Well here I am :) I've decided to start my own blog.. not sure why but it might be fun :) the first few posts I will try to do today about how my life basically began. How I met my husband, why I moved to England, how we decided to have a baby etc. I hope you gonna enjoy my blog! :) see you soon x
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