Introducing myself :)

I don't even know where to begin... My full name is Paulina Klaudia Baker. I'm 18 and I'm polish but moved to England in June 2009. I have one sister (13) and my brother (3). My mum got pregnant with me at age of 16 but it was her first time and I've never met my dad as I've been told he wasn't a good person anyway.

My mum moved to England in 2008 to earn some money as in Poland life was just too expensive. I then lived with my grandparents for that year. When my mum had my sister, she was married but the marriage was really difficult. I still remember the difficult nights when my mum sent me to my grandparents for a sleepover so she could sleep in my bed in the same room as my sister and she locked the room. My childhood was quite violent... But it doesn't matter :)

When my mum had my little brother, she said it should put me off having kids for a while but to be honest, it worked the opposite way haha :) I knew I really wanted a baby and that was my dream :) . But of course I don't think 15 is a good age for having a baby! I was in few relationships... first when I moved to England, I got with a chinese guy and my english pretty much sucked but its a long story... I considered him as my first love and there is nothing bad I could say about him but now we are just some strangers with memories.

In January 2012, I met Andy who was then 21 and I was 17 but then I was trying to get with other guy from my college. Andy was on the second year of business when I was on the first year. Then I got into a relationship with that guy but after we broke up, I started talking to Andy quite a lot. Every night we just talked on facebook for ages as his phone was broken. I found out so many things that he is adopted etc. The only thing I didn't like was that he said he isn't emotional in any way. He doesn't show any emotions and doesn't care about anythin.. When he asked me out, I really wasn't sure of what to do as I knew it wouldn't work out! But after a while of him waiting for the answer (about 3 weeks), I decided to give it a shot. After a month of being together, Andy told me he loves me but I wasn't there quite yet. We got together on the 11th of June 2012. Few weeks after I told him I love him too :) This relationship was so much different than expected.. he was the most caring and loving boyfriend I've ever had and it was so obvious that I was the most important person to him.

After few months of being together, I just thought he would be a perfect father so I talked him into trying for a baby :) I stopped taking my pills and in October, We found out that I'm pregnant. We lived in my mum's for almost my whole pregnancy. On Valentine's day 2013 Andy proposed to me :) Proposal was planned but I didn't know when :) We got married on the 1st of June 2013, exactly a week after my 18th birthday :D The day after the wedding Andy found out that he got a job in Worcester Bosch as technical support adviser and we were really happy :D Then we moved into our own place in July when I was due the end of July :D Niko was overdue thou, but story about him will be told later :) Now we are happily married, living together and having our soon to be 7 months old baby boy Niko :)

My mum and Andy's dad supported us with everything but Andy's mum always wanted the worst for us. She was getting angry when we were buying stuff for our baby and just wanted us to have a really cheap stuff for our home and our son! I still hate her and will never forgive her how much stress she caused when I was pregnant. Well I can't think of anything else to say about me... I went through a lot but it's pointless to talk about it as it was a long time ago... having a depression, trying to kill myself, having an agressive step dad but oh well... life goes on and I'm happy with it! I believe everything has its reason to be... If my childhood wasn't the way it was, I wouldn't move to England and I wouldn't be happy with my husband and son! My life is so perfect but also so unperfect but we will get there in later posts :)

Thanks for reading guys!
xxx