Dreams and fears

Everyone has them! What are my dreams and fears? Oh there is quite a lot and there is some of them that I can remember :)

Dreams:
` Learn to ride a horse
` Have a family holiday every year
` Buy our own house within few years from now
` Have a little girl next
` Niko to have both parents together
` Have a dog
` Be able to spoil Niko whenever
` Have twins next with at least one girl ;)
` Niko to not have the same colour of eyes as mine :/
` Niko to be able to speak Polish as well as English
` Niko's first word to be mama :)
` My marriage to last forever <3
` Be pregnant max.3 times :) (not saying 3 kids cuz I want twins next and then another but no more than 3 pregnancies lol)
` To move out from this small ugly town haha :D
` Spend at least one christmas with Niko in Poland :D
` Be stay at home for at least few years :) I love spending time with my baby!

Fears:
` Cot death!!! D:
` Outliving Niko
` Having two boys lol :)
` Getting divorced
` Struggle with money
` My grandad dying
` Being a single mum
` Niko hating me
` Getting fat
` Never be able to buy a house
` Spiders!!!!
` Heights
` Andy stops loving me
` Something happening to me and Niko not having a mum around :(

I can't think of anything more, sorry! Now I'm off to bath Niko as he's already getting tired poor baba.. had only one nap today! Wish me luck :D

Thanks for reading.
xxx